Trapped in My Own Mind

Book excerpt: Alone. Helpless. Trapped. That is how I feel when waves of depression and negative feelings come over me. There seems to be no answers, and in the most intense moments, no one available to help. Do you ever feel like you are drowning in life, but that you cannot let the people in your life know about it? That is me when I feel trapped in my own mind. It is as if no one could understand my thoughts, and as if telling them would just complicate things that much more. I then find myself living one life in front of people, but another life that only I know about. Unfortunately, it took flirting with my own safety to realize how far I had progressed. One feeling had led to another. I finally realized that I was about to become one of those horrible stories people talk about. Or I could try to overcome, and use my story to help others. Opening up is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I never wanted anyone to know about my struggles! But it also was the best first step I could have taken. I decided to actually write out the frustrations going on inside me. There had to be someone else out there who also felt trapped. So maybe I could just relate to them. But I had no idea where this journey would actually take me. For the first time, I experienced release! I also heard powerful stories from others. But this was just the beginning. Personal answers and resources came to light, and this project is the result. A negative spiral was truly turned into a positive ascent, and I hope you will join in this discovery of freedom!