The Wall of Secrets

Book excerpt: Do you feel you belong; that you fit-in in this world? Have you experienced abuse, adoption, loss, and grief? The Wall of Secrets was how I survived those feelings of not belonging, not fitting-in; not being wanted or loved. Each drawer holds one of my traumas, one of my secrets. Not only do adoptees struggle with these feelings, but perhaps everyday people like you do as well. My first memoir, Finding Heart Horse, led me to a place where I was able to open my Wall of Secrets one drawer at a time, and heal the many traumas. I go from being the street kid in Finding Heart Horse to a nurse and mother experiencing a near death experience, uncovering demons from my past, and after thirty-five years of searching, finding my biological family. The journey is not without many twists and turns as painful discoveries are made and truths revealed. The Wall of Secrets proves that people can change; that our thoughts do affect our daily lives and the direction we take. That inside, deep inside, your heart and soul you can find the diamonds of your authentic self. We all want to belong, to be loved, to trust and be our true selves. Inside these pages you will find inspiration to push through your fears, to get to the other side where peace lies waiting. There is always hope and healing. If you dig deep enough, you too will find your diamonds and discover they were there all along just waiting. A portion of the proceeds from this book will go to Covenant House Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada.