We Carry Smoke and Paper

Book excerpt: Answering an unexpected call to faith in her thirties, Melody Gee contends with what saying "yes" to conversion requires of an adopted daughter of Chinese immigrants. She looks for answers and consolation in her family's story of immigration trauma and cultural assimilation, in the ways their burdens and limitations made her answer-seeking both impossible and inevitable. We Carry Smoke and Paper is a memoir about what we owe to those who sacrifice everything for us, and it is about the many conversions in a lifetime that turn our heads via whispers and shouts, calling us to ourselves.