Twin Flame Runner Fears

Book excerpt: It's much more than just feeling unworthy, there are deep-seated fears within the runner Twin Flame that affect the actions and behaviors of a runner Twin Flame. For me, I felt this unexplainable fear within myself that triggered feelings of unworthiness and personal insecurity. The more I thought of the possibilities of being in the presence of my Twin Flame, I felt like it accelerated my fears of not being good at loving him back. Meeting my Twin Flame filled me up with bliss and harmony but it also exposed the broken parts of me that I was ignoring. I instantly dropped the bad habits and adopted new ones. But still, a deeper part of myself needed healing. I kept asking myself; "Why does my Twin Flame make me feel uncomfortable sometimes?" "Why do I love Him so much that I don't feel worthy of the love that I feel?" Sometimes I could find silly reasons to distance myself from my Twin Flame but he couldn't stay away either. As a previous runner Twin Flame, I struggled with accepting unconditional love because I wondered if there was a hidden "motive" as to why my Twin Flame loves me that way. I wondered why he loves me the way he does yet I didn't feel like I was special enough to deserve it. It all goes back to the beginning. The fear that I felt when my Twin Flame came into my life goes back to how I was raised and what kind of love relationships that I had encountered in the past. I was wounded from the core of my soul. I had this emotional pain that I had suppressed over the years. I also learned that if I look back to my childhood and upbringing my "inner child" was in fear of the world. I have always felt like I was surrounded by pain and suffering. I embraced this as a big part of my life that affected how I perceived the world and everything around me. I learned that my inner child only knew pain instead of love. The fact that unconditional love was not part of my early life, I had no idea what it felt like when someone openly showed it to me. As I write this, I had a lot of lessons to learn about life, unconditional love, and self-love but none of these lessons have been easy. Some lessons have been so difficult that I almost doubted being a Twin Flame. Other lessons I learned without realizing that I was going through the process. And the most difficult lessons are those that involved unlearning my previous bad habits and mental conditions. During some of my difficult lessons, I could go to my knees and beg the universe to take the pain away. I wanted all the stress and the frustration of missing my Twin Flame to stop. With the Twin Flame connection, for me, it felt like a "beautiful curse". Meeting my Twin Flame is the best feeling ever, but also the most Soul challenging experience that I ever experienced. I hope that my experience is helpful to you to gives you a fresh perspective on your Journey. If you need some more inspiration, I created simple easy to read self-help reads to inspire you. There are also very helpful tips for those who are new to the Twin Flame experience. I wish you blessings and love on your journey.